As the Year Winds Down

It has been a while.

This site has existed in some form or another for over 20 years. Despite the lack of blog updates (or any of the other update/maintenance things I’ve had in mind), I’ve been maintaining the hosting and registration because… well, it’s mine, and I don’t want to lose it, even if it’s been (figuratively) sitting on the shelf unused for a couple of years.

It should come as a surprise to absolutely no one that the last few years have been rough for me. I am far from unique in this regard, and those struggles have affected the way I approach my life and work.

Some things are the same — I’m still part of the development team for Earthdawn. I still live in Maine. I still live a not-insignificant portion of my life online.

But other things are not. My wife of nearly 20 years died in 2020 as a result of Covid-19 just before Thanksgiving. I’m a single dad to two great kids (both teenagers now). Personal (and professional) projects have suffered as I’ve struggled with focus and executive dysfunction.

I want to produce more… but if I’m honest with myself, I’m getting down on myself for things I haven’t done, rather than celebrate the things I have.

Production? For three years I’ve been cohosting the Earthdawn Survival Guide, a podcast dedicated to the game that is such a large part of my life. We recently passed 150 episodes, no small feat in the podcast world.

I’ve handled the layout for multiple Earthdawn books, and continued acting as an ambassador and public face for the game.

Sure, some things on my wish list may not have happened (yet), but… we shouldn’t define ourselves by our failures. I’ve gotten through, which are an accomplishment for anyone given the last five years. I finally got on some medication that seems to be helping a little bit with my focus (after wanting to do that for a while), and my personal life is being reassembled.

I’m not a big believer in resolutions… but this feels like the year for one. I’m going to try and keep it simple.

I resolve to not get down on myself for not accomplishing everything. I resolve to be kind to myself, to give myself the grace I extend to those I care about facing their own struggles. I will try to form some new and better habits, but they might not take… and that’s okay. Life is a work in progress. Count the victories where you can, and remember that — while life can change in an instant — there’s always tomorrow.

Best wishes to you all, and who knows, this old site might see more from me yet.

Virag the Journeyman

Once you start playing your Earthdawn character, you start earning Legend Points. These are spent to advance talent and skill ranks, increase Attribute values, bond magic items, and other stuff.

Our Legends of Earthdawn campaign has been running for a while now. I thought it might be interesting — after walking through the build process — to show where Virag, my troll Nethermancer, currently stands and why I made the choices I did. I’m not going to go step-by-step through each phase of advancement, just run through her current sheet and explain why I made some of the choices I did.

As of this writing, Virag has 39,900 total Legend Points (and has spent all of them).


I’ve spent points to raise two different Attributes, each by one point. Willpower was raised from 15 to 16, increasing it to Step 7 and boosting the effect of all Virag’s spells. Toughness was raised from 14 to 15, granting a couple extra points of Death and Unconsciousness Ratings, but more significantly increasing her Wound Threshold to 10.


Virag reached Fifth Circle with her latest stretch of downtime. All of her First through Fourth Circle Discipline talents are at Rank 5, except for Spellcasting and Nethermancy, which are both Rank 6. I hope I don’t need to explain why.

Summon, the Fifth Circle Discipline talent, is only at Rank 4 for now. I would have liked to get it higher, but there were other places I wanted to spend my points. Even when you have about 40k Legend, there’s always more you want than you can afford.

For optional talents I took Dispel Magic at Second Circle, and Suppress Curse at Third. These are broadly useful talents, and worth picking up since we don’t have a Wizard or Weaponsmith in the group to provide them. They also let me play a little bit in the Wizard space I was originally looking at for the character. Dispel Magic is currently Rank 4, Suppress Curse at Rank 3.

At Fourth Circle I picked up Command Nightflyer, mostly because I wanted to be able to play with the spells that interact with that talent (Dark Messenger, Dark Spy, Nightflyer’s Cloak). It’s currently at Rank 3.

In what should come as a surprise to nobody, my Fifth Circle optional talent is Enhanced Matrix. Combined with her free matrices and the optional Standard Matrix at First Circle, Virag has four innate spell matrices (two Standard, two Enhanced). All of her innate matrices are currently Rank 5.

Talent Knacks

I really like the Spellcasting knacks we introduced in the Earthdawn Companion, and Virag has learned three. Astral Strain (reduces the target’s Mystic Defense by 2), Bleed (reduces target’s Wound Threshold by 2), and Unsettle (target reduces Willpower-based tests by 2).


A lot of my Legend Points (and a not insignificant portion of my cash) has been sunk into learning spells. Virag has learned:

  • First Circle: Bone Circle, Dark Messenger, Soulless Eyes, Spirit Grip
  • Second Circle: Chilling Circle, Death’s Head, Night’s Edge, Shadow’s Whisper, Shield Mist, Summon Fog Ghost
  • Third Circle: Arrow of Night, Aspect of the Bone Spirit, Fog of Fear, Grave Message, Pain, Palinthrax’s Siphon*, Summon Bone Spirit
  • Fourth Circle: Dark Spy, Evil Eye, Last Chance, Nightflyer’s Cloak, Viewpoint
  • Fifth Circle: Blind, Dust to Dust, Wither Limb

Palinthrax’s Siphon is a spell created for the game that ties in to plot stuff that has not yet been released in the podcast.


I’ve picked up a couple of skill ranks as well. While they aren’t as easy to advance as talents, the limits of optional talents mean there might be useful abilities you want but can’t fit into your talent progression.

I learned Avoid Blow at Rank 1, in part to help make Shield Mist more effective. I learned Awareness at Rank 1 to give me 2d6 on my general Perception tests (this was a very recent acquisition). I also increased my Read and Write Language skill to Rank 2 so that I could learn to read and write Theran (again, for story reasons not revealed in the podcast yet).

All three of those are available as talent options to Nethermancers, but that means I can’t use that optional slot for a talent like Dispel Magic or Command Nightflyer. I could potentially use them as options in my Journeyman tier… but that ties up slots better used for my newly available talent options. It also means that I either delay getting my additional Enhanced Matrix, or wait even longer to put one of those options at Sixth Circle (or higher).

Since advancement slows once you reach Journeyman Circles, that could be a long wait.

Thread Items

Virag has acquired two thread items in the game. The first is a Thorn Wand, woven up to Rank 4, providing an additional Standard Matrix, +1 rank to Spellcasting, +1 to Thread Weaving tests, and +1 rank Willforce.

The other item is just a Standard Matrix item, currently woven to Rank 3. But this means that, along with the matrix in the Thorn Wand, Virag has a total of 6 spell matrices:

  • Standard Matrix (Free) at Rank 5
  • Standard Matrix (Optional) at Rank 5
  • Enhanced Matrix (Free) at Rank 5
  • Enhanced Matrix (Optional) at Rank 5
  • Standard Matrix (Thorn Wand) at Rank 4
  • Standard Matrix (Matrix Item) at Rank 3

Even with that broad selection of matrices, though, spell selection can still be tough. I’m thinking that one of the Enhanced Matrices will hold either Astral Spear or an extra-thread Spirit Dart for damage. The other will probably hold Last Chance so that I have a better chance of bringing somebody back from the brink — trying to reattune on the fly, then thread and cast within the effective time limit of the spell is not fun. The other spell I’m inclined to keep handy is Shield Mist (for defense).

The other slots are a bit more flexible. Pain, Blind, or Dust to Dust would be useful depending on whether I’m expecting to go up against undead or Namegivers. Life Circle of One is another decent anti-undead spell, whereas Death’s Head is good against Namegivers as it lets me bring Frighten’s debuff power to bear more effectively. Arrow of Night or Night’s Edge are good buff spells, though I’m more likely to use the former (our Illusionist typically buffs front-liners with Monstrous Mantle, while I hang back with the Scout).

So that’s where Virag stands right now. I’m happy with her development so far, and see plenty more room to grow.

Building Virag (Part 3)

It’s been nearly a year since I’ve made a post, and nearly two years since I left off my build-through of my troll Nethermancer, Virag. (Part One, Part Two)

The campaign is still going on, and you can catch up with our ongoing adventures in the Legends of Earthdawn podcast. The story is several sessions behind where we are in our actual game — as of this post, the characters are Second Circle (or just reached Third), but we just wrapped up a major arc and had a big chunk of downtime to reach Fifth Circle (and I think some of characters might be nearing Sixth). I want to post the current version of Virag, but before I do that I should probably finish up this series.

(6) Assign Talent Ranks and Spells

We last left off with talent selection. For magicians, that is followed by Spell Selection. You receive the character’s Perception Step in points for spells. First Circle spells cost one point, while Second Circle spells cost two.

Personally, I find it hard to buy Second Circle spells with starting points. The main reason for this is because of the limitations on casting that spell to start. Even if you were to raise one of your starting spell matrices to Rank 2, you still can’t put a Second Circle spell in it. This leaves only Grimoire Casting and Raw Magic as your options. I’m not crazy about either.

Raw Magic… well, it’s Raw Magic. Grimoire casting is actually okay in ED4, but because I cut my teeth on first edition (where you can’t cast spells you know from a grimoire) it’s not something that pops into my mind. It’s also not particularly well suited to combat… and outside of combat, there’s typically no reason you can’t reattune your matrices for the spells you need.

(Obviously, a lot of this depends on the style of game, but these are the default assumptions I bring to character design.)

All that said, Virag has Perception Step 7, and therefore gets 7 points worth of starting spells. Here are the ones I decided to go with, along with the brief reasons why.

  • Astral Spear: A little bit better range and higher base damage than Spirit Dart (the other damage spell I took). Slightly less useful because of the need for a thread, but the boosted damage from extra successes is nice.
  • Ethereal Darkness: One of the iconic Nethermancer spells. I don’t get to use it a lot, but I still like it.
  • Experience Death: Another iconic Nethermancer spell. An excellent (if dangerous) investigative resource.
  • Life Circle of One: A useful anti-undead and Horror construct spell. You never know when you’re going to run into those.
  • Shadow Meld: Boosts party stealth, making it more likely to avoid conflict (or get the drop on your enemies). These are desirable goals.
  • Soul Armor: Bonuses to Mystic Armor can be useful (though, in fairness, I don’t think I’ve used this that much).
  • Spirit Dart: Damage and range aren’t as good as Astral Spear, but the Mystic Armor debuff is nice, and it doesn’t need a thread. This means that, round-for-round, it does more damage than Astral Spear.

I didn’t take Bone Circle because it’s a spell that’s not well suited to a game with a lot of travel. Dark Messenger is a nice spell, but isn’t much use if you don’t have the Command Nightflyer talent (or some other way to get an appropriate animal under your control). Soulless Eyes didn’t really fit with my concept of playing against the “spooky” archetype. Spirit Grip does the same damage as Spirit Dart, and has a slightly better debuff effect (reducing Defense Ratings instead of Armor), but it’s Touch range, and I wasn’t planning on being in close combat.

(7) Assign Skill Ranks

In this step, you assign ranks to starting skills. You get 1 rank in an Artisan skill, 2 ranks in Knowledge skills, some Language skills, and then 8 more points to spend on any Novice-tier skills you want.

I went traditional with my Artisan skill and took 1 rank in Robe Embroidery. There wasn’t anything different I could think of that fit my concept (although thinking back on it now, taking drawing or something like that to sketch my observations of astral fauna would be an interesting approach).

For Knowledge skills I took 1 rank in Nethermancer Lore and 1 rank in Spirits and Astral Fauna. Both of these fit the character concept of being an astral naturalist. Language skills are pretty much predetermined: speak dwarf (Throalic) and troll, read and write dwarf (Throalic).

For my free skill ranks, I like to pick up things that are either useful, or make sense given background or concept. I put an additional rank into Spirits and Astral Fauna since that fit my concept. I put 1 rank into Physician — a generally useful skill, it’s worth somebody in the group having it, and it’s often conceptually appropriate for a Nethermancer or Elementalist.

In my efforts to play against type I decided to pick up a couple of social skills: 2 ranks each in Etiquette and Flirting. Nethermancers don’t get much in the way of social abilities (at least, ones that don’t rely on fear or intimidation), and I didn’t conceive of Virag as the stereotypical antisocial, reclusive Nethermancer. Understanding some of the nature of death makes her value life, and she intends to live (and enjoy) it. Finally, 2 ranks in Melee Weapons, just in case she finds herself in a situation where she needs to hit stuff with sharp or heavy objects.

The reason I distributed the rank points the way I did was because of the Attributes associated with the skills. This put all of the general skills I picked up at Step 8. As I have mentioned a couple of times in this series, I shoot for that Step 8 when I can since the 2d6 has a significant advantage over the d12 of Step 7 (and it’s even more important when you can’t bring Karma to bear).

(8) Equip Your Character

Time to start wrapping things up. All characters get some free gear and some cash (100 silver) to determine what they start with. Here’s what I chose:

  • Adventurer’s kit (Free): Includes a backpack, bedroll, flint and steel, torch, waterskin, and a large sack.
  • Artisan tools (Free): Embroidery tools (since I chose Robe Embroidery as my artisan skill).
  • Large knife (Free): Has to be Size 2 (since Virag is a troll).
  • Grimoire (Free): Contains all my starting spells.
  • Traveler’s Garb (Free): Includes soft boots, shirt, belt, breeches, and a traveler’s cloak.
  • 1 week trail rations (Free): So you don’t starve on your first adventure.
  • Broadsword (25 silver): My backup weapon in case I need to stab something.
  • Hardened Leather Armor (50 silver): Don’t go adventuring without protection! More expensive because I’m a troll.
  • Writing Kit (23 silver): To record my experiences and observations.
  • 2 silver left over.

Not a bad start. There’s more I want (a Physician’s Kit and extra clothes are high on my wish list, but hopefully our first adventures will provide some extra cash).

(9) Flesh Out Your Character

Some of this I have already dealt with as part of my conceptualization of Virag. I didn’t want to detail too much history for a few reasons. First, I like it as a GM when my players give me empty space where I can attach potential hooks (with their permission and consent), so I like returning the favor when I have the chance. Also, since I’m not sure what shape the game is going to take, I didn’t want to close off potential options ahead of time.

Also, there wasn’t a strong “campaign concept” that had been pitched to us. Since I wasn’t sure what shape the game was going to take, or where we were going to end up, I didn’t want to establish strong character elements that would either close off potential avenues later, or be potentially irrelevant (for example, if we’re not going to be dealing with the Crystal Raiders at all, establishing a strong background in that regard doesn’t do much except inform personality).

And, since several of my fellow players were new to Earthdawn (from both a setting and system standpoint), I wanted a relatively “generic” background so as not to hog the spotlight with my extensive knowledge, either from the other PCs, or to force the GM to direct the campaign in service of my character.

So, the concept and personality I had developed early on suited my needs here. I also enjoy discovering my character through play, giving myself (and the character) space to grow and explore. It’s a bit meta, but it’s one of my favorite aspects of creating an RPG character. I’m… semi-immersionist (if that’s a thing). I like “getting into character,” but I also have a bit of my mind that’s apart from that; a kind of “author’s view” that looks at the character’s role in the broader story.

(10) Play the Game

And that’s Virag. The game has been running a couple of years now, meeting monthly (give or take). We’ve advanced, and Virag has developed in some ways I didn’t quite foresee. She has ended up as the de facto group leader, and the epicurean aspects of her personality I originally conceived haven’t really come out as much. I still downplay the fear-based aspects of her Discipline, which means when I break those out it’s all the more significant.

That wraps things up for now. I’ll be returning at a later date (not too much later, I promise), to go through Virag’s Novice-tier advancement and explain my choices through there. Join me then!

Can I be real a second?

Can I be real a second? For just a millisecond? Let down my guard and tell the people how I feel a second? — George Washington in Hamilton: An American Musical

Hi there. I’ve been quiet here lately. Even setting aside this place, my overall output has been inconsistent at best.

I’m going to be honest. Bare my soul to show the scars kind of honest.

Things haven’t been great. Not for a while.

I mean, it’s not like that’s news. Anybody who’s been paying attention can’t help but notice that.

But the last few weeks? They’ve seemed especially anti-great. I’ve been a simmering cauldron of rage and despair.

In the wake of the Weinstein story, there has been a lot of discussion, debate, and hot takes. In one sense, this is a good, important thing. There’s a lot of garbage that has been dredged up. A notable increase in the amount of people stepping up and saying, “We’ve had enough of this crap.”

I mean, there’s a lot of negative shit that’s come up as well. Exemplifying the reason it really needs to be stomped on. Hard.

It’s not just in Hollywood. The RPG industry (such as it is) has been dealing with this kind of stuff as well. And there are folks standing up and saying, “Enough.”

It’s awful. And necessary. And painful.

It’s also dragging up a whole bunch of personal stuff. I’ve been stewing on it for several days now.

Back in my teens and early twenties, I was an angry, repressed, unhappy young man. I was abusive, directly and indirectly, to people that were close to me.

I read these accounts. Stories being shared by courageous women (and men), stepping up and shining a light where it needs to be shined. Willing to take the abuse that will inevitably follow. And I think back to shit I did 20 years ago (or more). And I see my behavior then in today’s light, and I am ashamed.

I was a selfish, self-centered jackass who was more concerned with his own feelings, his own gratification, desperately trying to fill a void, make sense of his life. And being totally inconsiderate of other people, and their comfort, and their feelings. I have no doubt that I came across as a creep at times. I have no doubt that I made some women uncomfortable.

And then there’s the stuff I didn’t do, but witnessed, and that may have done the same.

If any of those women somehow find their way to reading this, know that I am sorry. I wasn’t aware of it at the time. I was so wrapped up in my own petty, egocentric, narcissistic bullshit that I couldn’t see how what I was doing hurt you. I am ashamed of it. Nobody deserves to be seen, or treated, in that way.

I have spent the last several years trying to be better. I’m far from perfect.

And even with this post, I feel like I’m hijacking the conversation. Making it about me. That’s not my intent. Not really. And I’ve been trying to peck out an ending to this. Figure out how to wrap it up.

I’ve been staring at this for a while wondering if I’m even going to post it. Because I’m scared. (For reasons that are their own neurotic ball of joy.)

I guess…

I’m sorry. I hear you. I believe you.

Building Virag (Part 2)

Last time was dedicated to Attribute selection. As you may have noticed in some of my reasoning, the choices were not made in a vacuum — there were times where later choices influence what I decided to do. For example, looking at the available spells to see what the Effect Step would be based on different Willpower values.

This bit of forethought becomes easier as you become more familiar with the game and the options available (especially to starting characters), but even if you’re new to the system and building your first hero, don’t be overly shackled to the process described in the book. If, at a later step, you find you want to go back and tweak something from earlier, go right ahead. The character isn’t done until you set out on that first adventure.

(Even then, I encourage gamemasters to allow ‘mulligans’ — especially for new players. It is possible they may find the character isn’t performing as well as they hoped, or that certain choices had unforeseen consequences. Since many of the players in the Legends of Earthdawn podcast were new to the system, one of the things I did was offer advice on their builds, pointing out potential pitfalls. I think experienced players and gamemasters have some obligation to help out the newcomers.)

All of that said, let’s continue with the character creation process for Virag.

(4) Determine Characteristics

There really aren’t any choices to be made here. The numbers are derived from the Attributes chosen in step 3, but going over these numbers might prompt you to go back and tweak how you spent those initial build points. For example, if you see that your Dexterity is one point shy of getting a Physical Defense increase, you can go back and see if shuffling some things around might help you get that without losing out in another area.

Here are Virag’s derived characteristics, based on her Attributes.

  • Base Initiative (based on Dexterity): Step 6.
  • Physical Defense (based on Dexterity): 8
  • Mystic Defense (based on Perception): 9
  • Social Defense (based on Charisma): 8
  • Carrying Capacity (based on Strength): 140 pounds
  • Unconsciousness Rating (based on Toughness): 28, +3 for Durability, totals 31
  • Death Rating (based on Toughness): 34, +4 for Durability and First Circle, totals 38
  • Wound Threshold (based on Toughness): 9
  • Recovery Tests (based on Toughness): 3 per day
  • Physical Armor (based on armor worn): Will have to wait until I buy equipment.
  • Mystic Armor (based on Willpower): 3
  • Movement Rate (based on race): 14 yards per combat round
  • Starting Karma (based on race and Circle): 3 points

(5) Record Racial Abilities

As with the previous step, there ins’t really a choice to be made here. Or rather, the choice was made back in step two when I decided Virag would be a troll. As a result, she has:

  • Heat sight

(6) Assign Talent Ranks and Spells

Okay, back to some choices. Virag has 8 points to distribute among her talents–5 Discipline and 1 optional. She also gets two free Standard Matrices (which can inform the selection of optional talent).

The First Circle Nethermancer Discipline talents are: Astral Sight, Frighten, Nethermancy, Patterncraft, and Spellcasting.

While it is possible to assign up to Rank 3 at the start, as with Attributes I tend to prefer a more balanced approach. You never know what might come in handy. If you look at things from a perspective of most efficient use of Legend Points to advance, going with four Discipline talents at Rank 2 means you only need to spend 300 Legend to qualify for Second Circle, you end up not having any ranks in one of your Discipline talents, and no optional talent.

That isn’t necessarily a problem, depending on your Discipline and whether you know what you’re doing. You might want to hold off on selecting an optional talent until you have a better sense of who your character is, or looking to fill potential holes in your group’s suite of abilities.

Back to Legend Point efficiency, any other distribution of starting points would cost more Legend to qualify for Second Circle, but only by a couple of hundred points. In the grand scheme of a character’s career, that isn’t much of anything.

So… Virag. I place one point in each Discipline talent, which leaves me with three points. Before I go any further, I take a look at the optional talents available to Nethermancers, and decide which one I want to start out with.

While there are several good options, my choice is obvious: a third Standard Matrix. The flexibility this offers a starting magician cannot be overstated. Having an extra spell available on short notice can be extremely helpful (though this depends on your starting spells). Other choices are certainly valid, especially if you know what you’re doing or have a particular build objective in mind.

If I’m going to take a third matrix, that uses up one of my three remaining points, and there’s no sense in putting more into it. A starting magician–even if they decide to take a Second Circle spell to start–can’t put a spell higher than First Circle in a matrix.

With all my starting talents selected, all that remains is where to spend my last two points. Looking at the Attributes connected to my Discipline talents, all of them except Frighten are based on Perception. Since I have a Step 7 Perception, that means all but Frighten are starting at Step 8. If you recall from last time, I recommend doing all you can to have as many starting talents as you can at Step 8, to get into those multiple-die Steps.

All right then. I might as well put one of my remaining points into Frighten to bring that to Step 8. One point to go.

Spellcasting is, in my opinion, the best option here. It’s the one that most benefits from a higher Step, and consequently a higher average result. But let’s go over the other talents, and the reasoning there.

Nethermancy has fixed difficulty numbers–First Circle spells have a standard thread weaving DN of 5, and 10 for reattuning on the fly. Step 8 has a fairly good chance of success against a 5 (about 83%). Reattuning on the fly is more difficult (only about a 17% chance of success without Karma), but I’ll leverage my third matrix, and make sure my “standard” spell attunement is weighted more toward being prepared for the heat of the moment (aka combat). If I need to swap out on the fly, I can use my Karma (increasing my chance of success to about 83%), but with only 3 points per day, that’s a precious commodity.

Patterncraft has both fixed and variable DNs. It’s fixed for learning new spells (DN 6 for First Circle, DN 7 for Second Circle, etc). Step 8 gives me better than even odds for both of those, and since learning new spells costs Legend Points, it’s not something I’m likely to do early on anyway. The DN can vary when it comes to using Patterncraft to analyze magical stuff, but I’m not sure how much of that is going to factor into this game. Extra information can be helpful, but not critical.

Astral Sight can benefit from the higher results available with higher Steps, but Step 8 puts me at a decent chance of success against the base DN of 6 for seeing into astral space, and even odds against the modified DN of 8 for “Open” Astral Space. I’m probably not going to be using Astral Sight for more than getting a sense of how corrupted local astral space is, or whether a given item is magical–actually studying patterns is based on the target’s Mystic Defense, and probably a bit out of my reach (at least without spending precious Karma).

Firghten I’ve already raised to Rank 2, and with my balanced approach, probably doesn’t need any more. Especially with my concept of going against type. Sure, making it Rank 2 already works against that concept, but I’m also willing to sacrifice some aspects of concept in the name of numerical advantage. I can make it up through my character portrayal, and not relying on the talent too much.

Spellcasting, obviously, goes against the target’s Mystic Defense. The higher my Step, the higher the average result, the more likely I will be able to affect targets, and get potentially more successes. Last point goes there.

Also, once I’ve gotten a few Legend Points under my belt, it’s only a matter of a couple days to bring up those other ranks. Here’s where Virag’s starting talents stand, with the rank in parentheses, and the final Step and dice after:

  • Astral Sight (1) 8 / 2d6
  • Frighten (2) 8 / 2d6
  • Nethermancy (1) 8 / 2d6
  • Patterncraft (1) 8 / 2d6
  • Spellcasting (2) 9 / d8+d6
  • Standard Matrix A (1)
  • Standard Matrix B (1)
  • Standard Matrix C (1)

That will do it for this installment. Next time we’ll wrap up the series.

Building Virag (Part 1)

Earlier this year, I was invited to take part in an actual play podcast for Earthdawn. (For those who don’t know, this means the game is recorded and the audio posted online for people to download and listen to at their leisure.) We’ve been playing for a few months now, building up a backlog of gameplay so  episodes can come out in a regular basis.

The podcast launched yesterday. You can find it here. I’ve been having a good time. It’s nice to play for a change. I’m almost always the gamemaster, whether that’s for my local games (when I had time to run them), or for demos and one-shots at conventions. I went with a magician, which shouldn’t come as a surprise to anybody who knows me.

I figured, as a way to generate some content for this site, I would go through the step-by-step process of how I created the character, with some thoughts and commentary on why I made the choices I did. This series will follow the process as described in the Earthdawn Player’s Guide.

(1) Choose a Discipline

I decided to go with Nethermancer as my character’s Discipline. I was originally leaning towards Wizard, going as I usually do for a character that has a reason to know the same stuff I know when it comes to magic theory and such. But upon further reflection, I decided I wanted Virag to be fascinated with spirits and other astral fauna. Kind of an astral David Attenborough. I also decided at this point I wanted to play somewhat against type for Nethermancers, eschewing the deliberately creepy for more of a generally happy sort who enjoys creature comforts when they are available, but isn’t against getting her hands dirty. (And yes, I had decided to play a female character.)

(2) Choose a Race

I decided to go with troll for Virag’s race. I don’t recall what the exact reasoning was. Part of this, I think, was based on what the other players were creating. But I like trolls, and enjoy putting together unconventional Discipline/Race combinations. Trolls are often cast in combat roles, and making my magician a troll goes against type.

(3) Generate Attributes

With my concept established, this is the step where the real nuts and bolts work begins. One of the difficulties when going against type and creating unconventional combinations is the uphill battle of the race’s starting Attribute values not being ideally suited for the chosen Discipline, and needing to spend more points to my scores where I want them.

Trolls start with Dexterity 10, Strength 14, Toughness 12, Perception 9, Willpower 11, and Charisma 10. Perception and Willpower are the most important Attributes for a Nethermancer (and any other magician, for that matter), with Charisma not as important, but useful when dealing with spirits and the like.

When creating a new character, I prefer a more balanced approach instead of maximizing the Discipline’s most important Attributes. I think ‘maxed out’ starting builds, unless you really know what you’re doing, are more likely to hinder than help.

For instance, I could buy a +7 adjustment to Perception and Willpower (using 24 of my 25 available points), but that leaves me with just a +1 to add to one of my remaining Attributes. This means I could bump my Dexterity or Charisma from 10 to 11, giving me a Physical or Social Defense of 7 instead of 6. If I wanted some extra points, I could maybe afford to drop my Strength and/or Toughness… but then I’m hampering my chosen race’s strengths.

I don’t think Earthdawn has “dump stats” as such. Even if a given Attribute isn’t particularly important for your chosen Discipline, it’s often helpful. Dexterity helps you avoid being hit. Toughness makes it harder to take you out. Perception and Willpower each help you resist spells, while Charisma helps you avoid being taken advantage of. For those not expecting to be hitting enemies with swords and such, Strength might count, but even then… a low Strength can limit your options in terms of what kind of armor you can wear and how much loot you can haul out of an abandoned kaer.

You can build your magician around the idea their melee combat companions will run interference, so maybe Physical Defense and Toughness aren’t that important. But Archers are a thing, as is “geek the mage.”

All of this is a rather wordy way to say, I would rather have an Attribute score be one or two points lower than you could otherwise purchase, because it translates into better overall scores. Taking a +6 instead of a +7, for instance, saves you enough Attribute build points to give a +1 bonus to 3 other Attributes, or a +2 and a +1, or even a +3. Bringing up your Dexterity (for example) up enough to get an extra 2 points of Physical Defense is nothing to sneeze at.

Generally, I recommend that a new character shoot for Step 7 in the Attribute (or Attributes) their talents are based on. Not just First Circle talents (though those are important), but the talents available through the first few circles, both Discipline and optional. Shooting for Step 7 in those Attributes means even a single talent rank puts you at Step 8, the first multiple-die Step at 2d6. If you look at the probabilities involved, the jump from Step 7 to Step 8 is significant, and if you can get it, you should.

With all that theory-crafting in mind, here’s how I decided to spend my Attribute build points.

  • 3 points for +3 to Dexterity, raising it to a 13.
  • 0 points on Strength, leaving at its starting value of 14.
  • 2 points for +2 Toughness, bringing it up to a 14.
  • 12 points for +7 Perception, raising it to a 16.
  • 5 points for +4 Willpower, raising it to a 15.
  • 3 points for +3 Charisma, raising it to a 13.

Here’s the more involved reasoning:

Raising Perception to 16 is an obvious first choice, since that puts me at Step 7. Both Nethermancy and Spellcasting are based on Perception, and are the bread and butter for a magician. While a 17 would give me a starting Mystic Defense of 10 (instead of 9), that costs an extra 3 Attribute build points, which as I explained above, limits my options. Also, if I look ahead, I get a +1 Mystic Defense at Second Circle, and I can spend Legend Points to raise my Perception to a 17 later on for that extra point of Defense if I really want to.

Going with a 15 instead of a 16 for Willpower might seem to run against my earlier statement about shooting for Step 7 with my Discipline’s key Attributes, but the only talent based off Willpower to begin with is Frighten. A 16 doesn’t gain me any extra Mystic Armor, and (as we’ll see in a moment), the extra two Attribute build points are better used elsewhere. Spell damage is based on Willpower, but the starter 0-thread damage spells (Spirit Dart or Spirit Grip) are both Willpower+2, which still put me at Step 8. I can put 2 of my starting talent ranks in Frighten to bring that up to Step 8, but given my feelings on going against type… I decide to leave that for later.

Given that I am only one point shy of a Step increase, though, means I will probably aim to have Willpower be the first Attribute I raise with Legend Points.

Between those two, I’ve spent 17 of my 25 Attribute build points, leaving 8. If I divide them evenly between the other four Attributes, that gives me a +2 in each. But that puts both Dexterity and Charisma at a 12 — one point shy of both a Step increase and a Defense Rating increase. Given trolls have a starting Strength of 14, I can get away with not putting any more points there. That frees up 2 points, which get split between Dexterity and Charisma, bringing those each up to 13, granting Step 6 and a relevant Defense Rating of 8. Nice.

The two points remaining go into Toughness, raising that to a 14. Unconsciousness Rating 28, Death Rating 34, Wound Threshold 9, and 3 Recovery tests per day. I could drop my Strength down to a 13, giving me an extra point to raise my Toughness to 15, which gives me an extra couple points of health and a Wound Threshold of 10… but I think things look good where they are.

(I’m not personally fond of dropping scores if I don’t need to, and I think in this case the choice doesn’t make that much of a difference. While the optimization game can be fun, I’m not one to fiddle with the odd point when it doesn’t make what I feel is a significant difference.)

That will wrap it up for this installment. As you can see, none of my decisions were made in a vacuum. I looked at the derived characteristics, along with an eye toward what my talent choices are. This isn’t the only way to approach building a character, but I’ve given you some insight into my process. Hopefully it will help with yours.

Next time, we’ll look at talent selection.


Make Art Not War – 2017 Challenge

As I’ve recently expressed in this blog, I’ve been kind of frustrated and emotionally adrift. Work on Earthdawn has been good, but… well, I feel there’s more in the tank.

Driven in part by similar feelings, writer and game designer Monica Valentinelli has put forward a voluntary challenge for this year. Make Art Not War. I’ll defer to her description (at least briefly):

This challenge is about making art to tap into your voice and tell your story. After all, one story can change the world. The problem is, we have no idea which story that will be, when it will be told, or in what medium. It’s up to us to find it–by making art!

I’m stepping up to the challenge. So here we go:

  • I pledge to spend an hour a day on my personal, original art.
  • If I don’t feel motivated, I will write about why I wanted to take this challenge, either for fifteen minutes or one to three pages, whichever comes first.
  • I pledge to keep track of my output in a public fashion to be held accountable.
  • I pledge to be disconnected from the internet and social media during my creative time to minimize distraction.

Here’s my primary (but not exclusive) goal with this challenge. I’ve had a story in my head for more than fifteen years. I started working on it about the time my wife and I first got together. I produced a little shy of 6,000 words for it, and haven’t really looked at it in some time. But even after all this time, it is still with me.

So I want to see if I can make it work.

Will it? I don’t know. But it is probably the only way to get it out of my head. If I want to really make a go at writing (even as a side gig), I need to stop thinking about it, and start doing it.

Wish me luck!

Some days, I can’t even….

I’ve probably taken half a dozen runs toward this post, kind of a post-mortem of the past couple of months. Part of the reason it’s been hard is that I’m not really fond of conflict or controversy–at least in certain areas–and the thoughts and feelings I’ve been dealing with are kind of loaded with that stuff.

What I’m saying is, there’s a lot of negative stuff out there right now, and I’m not really thrilled with the idea of attracting any of it to me. May be a bit cowardly, but… well… *sigh*

Trump was elected.

The last few weeks have been filled with a lot of shock, anger, frustration, fear, second-guessing… not only my own, but also from a lot of friends and acquaintances. The Republican party, with the position it is in, has the power to affect the lives of a lot of people, and probably not for the better.

I’m a middle-aged, white, hetero (well, mostly), guy. I also live in a mostly white, rural state. I’m not likely to be in danger of any kind of systemic oppression or discrimination. But I know a lot of people who don’t have that luxury. As a friend, that’s troubling and upsetting to me. I can only imagine how it might be in their shoes.

On the one hand, I can kind of understand the attitude of those who are frustrated with the way things are. Things are pretty messed up in this country. There is a lot of uncertainty, and that leads to fear. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate…. the way to the dark side.

The world is not as they have expected — as they have been told it was. And those whose fault it is? Have lied and conned and manipulated. It’s the immigrants. It’s the muslims. It’s the blacks. It’s the OTHER.

wish they could be right. That, somehow, the upcoming administration and Republican ascension will result in — somehow — America becoming “great” again.

And, you know what? It will be. For Trump and the hateful sycophants he surrounds himself with.

But not for you.

Unless you are one of the very few with wealth and power, Trump and his ilk do not give a shit about you. They only care how you can be used to stifle dissent. How you can be used to maintain and exacerbate the differences that have been imposed. How you can fuel the engine of their enrichment and aggrandizement.

How you can be used.

There will, no doubt, be the occasional sop. The token gestures. But as the system is dismantled, our society taken apart piece by piece… people will suffer. And die. Any anger that manages to bubble up will be put down, or directed at the bogeymen they have created. The muslim. The black. The gay. The other.

There is no other.

There is only us. We have been divided. Misdirected. Pointed at each other so that we can have our pockets picked, our future sold off to enrich a select few in the present.

It’s frustrating. It’s depressing. It’s maddening. It’s infuriating.

I don’t have an answer. I don’t know if we (as a nation) are going to get through it, or what we (as a nation) will look like afterward.

I am afraid.

I want my kids to have a future… and right now that future is looking pretty dark.

I need to do something. I’ve been privileged enough to be able to sit on the sidelines the past four decades. But I can’t in good conscience do that any longer.

I’m still trying to figure out what I’m going to do. What I can do.

I’m one voice, but there are a lot of us out there. Time to speak out.

Making the sausage… one step at a time.

I’ve been kind of quiet this cycle with regard to politics. At least online.

Not because I don’t have opinions, because Lord knows I have those.

It’s mostly because the process this time around has been so gods-damned tiring. And disheartening. Like, “occasionally hating on the entire human collective” disheartening.

The United States is a nation of over 300 million people, covering some three and a half million square miles. Which is to say, it’s massive, complex, and requires a lot of infrastructure to maintain. When you factor in our relationship to the other 190-odd nations and 7 billion or so people on the planet…

Let’s just say I think we need smart, dedicated people running things.

like smart people. I like smart people that are passionate about things, like studying those things, and wonder how to make those things better. I love talking (and listening) to these kinds of people, because I learn stuff.

It usually doesn’t matter what the subject is — math, literature, physics, film, sociology, video games… I typically find myself enriched. Knowledge and understanding are awesome.

As a tabletop game developer, I appreciate passion for systems. Understanding how a tweak in one place can have repercussions in another. Being able to follow the thread of cause and effect. Looking at numbers and testing outcomes to steer towards the most desirable outcome. (Not perfect because… well… strive for perfection, but don’t make it the enemy of the good.)

Humans are… messy creatures. As a result, politics and governance are messy and only get messier the larger the group of humans involved. But it’s how we live together, maintain the support required for the society we’ve developed, and solve the challenges we face as a species.

I understand and sympathize with the many, many people who are frustrated with the way things are. I’m there with you. I wish it was easy to change the world.

But it’s not.

With so many people, and so many competing interests, changing — improving — the world is a slow process. Strive for ideals, know where you’re aiming, but fight one battle at a time. Make deals and work out realistic compromise. Accept three steps forward when you can’t get five.

Work towards a better world, but understand that it is work, and is sometimes (often) a dirty, unsatisfying, thing.

But in the end? Worth it.

As recently stated in the excellent Luke Cage series on Netflix, “Always forward.”

(You may notice I didn’t talk about any particular candidate. That’s on purpose. I’m laying out my general political philosophy — after a fashion — and not interested at this point in diving into the morass of spin und drang that dominates current political and social media.)

Website minutia

For those who care, I’ve finally gotten around to migrating the blog posts from the previous version of the site to the new location. This gives you a couple hundred old posts going back over several years.

Some of the links are broken, and images need to be moved over. That will take some time as I go through, post by post, to add categories and such. I still have a bunch of other content to move over, so perhaps I’ll get to that at some point.